Friday, September 22, 2017

Abide in Me, suffer in Me, love in Me


 When I asked Our Lord about my physical weaknesses, my pain, and fatigue:

Accept these things and offer them to the Father in union with My Passion for the sanctification of priests and the healing of those whom you have offended or wounded by your sins.

My beloved Jesus, attach me to Thyself, even as Your Mother and Magdalene were attached to Thee.

Abide in Me, suffer in Me, love in Me, and I will use all that you do and suffer to repair the evil you have done and to bring healing and peace to those whom you have injured.  Trust Me with your past and with its heavy burden of sin; give Me all that you have: the present moment.  Offer the present to Me, and I will attend to repairing your past and to preparing your future.  Your future is to be united with Me eternally in heaven by means of the same love with which you will have loved Me during these remaining years on earth.

Do you not see how much I have been calling you to trust in Me?  Trust is the key that opens all the treasures of My merciful and infinitely loving Heart.  I am touched by a single act of trust in My merciful love more than a multitude of good works.  The soul who trusts Me, by that very fact, removes the obstacles of pride and self-determination that impede my freedom of action.  There is nothing I will not do for the soul who abandons herself to Me in a simple act of trust.

Do Thou in me and through me, O my beloved Jesus,
all that Thou desires to find in me and do through me,
so that, in spite of my miseries, my weaknesses, and even my sins, 
your holy priesthood may be a radiance of Thine,
and the face of priests reflect the merciful love that ever shines 
      on Thy Holy Face
for souls who trust in Thee and abandon themselves 
      to Thy Divine action.

Will you allow Me to suffer in you, to complete in your flesh and in your heart that portion of My Passion reserved for you by My Father from all eternity?  I will send upon you the Holy Spirit, the Comforter, so that you may be able to suffer joyfully and in the peace of a complete submission to all the designs of My Heart upon your life.

I need your sufferings and I ask for them for the renewal of My priesthood in the Church and for the spiritual regeneration of priests weakened by sin and held in bondage to evil.  By your submission to My Father's will and by your humble participation in My Passion, many priests will be healed and purified, and restored to holiness.  Will you give Me your "yes"?  Will you consent to this work of Mine in you and through you?  Trust.

My Jesus, how can I refuse Thee anything?  All my trust is in Thee.  In Thee is all my hope.  I am all Thine, and Thy friendship is my assurance of happiness and of Thy unfailing grace.  I give Thee my heartfelt "yes."  I am all Thine, beloved Jesus: a spiritual mother for Thine own priesthood and a victim with Thee in Thy pure, holy, and spotless oblation to the Father. Amen.

Look to My Eucharistic Face and I will strengthen you in all your sufferings.  You will suffer not as one defeated by the forces of evil, but as one already united to Me in the triumph of My resurrection. I will suffer in you, giving to everything you endure out of love for Me and for My beloved priests a value far exceeding what can be measured in human terms.

My Heart will beat in yours and yours in Mine.  This is the union to which I am leading you.  This is the ultimate meaning of your passage on earth.  I am preparing you now for an eternal union with Me in the glory of heaven.  There you will find the home that I have prepared for you in My love for you even from before the beginning of time.

Your sufferings will be made of weakness and weariness and dependence on others.  I will send you physical sufferings, but I will also strengthen your heart and unite you more and more to Myself in a joy transcending all suffering and in a strength transcending every weakness.  You will be with Me on the altar of the Cross, and your life will become to the eyes of all a continuation and prolongation of My sacrifice on Calvary.  Thus will you be that mother in Jesus Crucified that I have chosen you to be; a mother to the souls of many priests, a mother with a heart pierced like My own Heart, and with an ever-flowing fountain of love for the healing of souls and the sanctification of My priests, my beloved priests.  Do you accept this?

Yes, Lord Jesus, I accept all that Thou proposest.  All my trust is in Thee.  All my confidence is in Thy Heart's friendship for me.

I will always give you strength to adore Me, to come before My Eucharistic Face, and to sing My praises.


adapted from 
In Sinu Jesu
A Journal of a Priest at Prayer











Monday, September 11, 2017

For as long as this earthly exile lasts



Lord, no matter how much I exhaust myself in the pursuit of even that which is good and worthy of effort, it disappears into what seems to be an empty void.  I often experience myself and my life bereft of meaning; mentally and physically devoid of strength.  Sacrifices once seemingly made with love now leave me bitter.  Friendships that once buoyed me up and counsel once valued have faded and I slip into a self-imposed isolation.  A life full of bright promise and hope has now turned grey.

Daughter, make Me the object of all your desires and you will never be disappointed.  Seek Me and you will find Me.  Ask for the grace of My presence in the sanctuary of your soul and there hold conversation with Me, for I am in you, and you are in Me.  I am your life, and apart from Me, all that this earthly life offers you is bitter and unable to satisfy your heart.  I have created you and called you to live in My friendship and to long for Me on earth until that longing is satisfied in heaven.

In the meantime, for as long as your earthly exile lasts, you have Me in the Sacrament of My love.  There you have My Heart; there you can contemplate My Face; there you can hear My voice; there you can enjoy My friendship and live in My presence.  I was no more really present to My Apostles than I am to you at this moment in the Sacrament of My love.  Do you believe this?

Yes, Lord, I believe.  Help my unbelief.  For it too has weakened.  The efficacy of my time before you I doubt and at times my gaze feels empty and to no purpose.  I would even say that my time before you is painful and any initiative lacking.  All seems forced.  My presence can only be an affront when my coldness meets the warmth of Your Love.  

I will strengthen your faith in My real presence and make it so strong that the rest of your life will rest upon it as a solid rock.  I am making you the adorer of My Eucharistic Face that I have so long desired.  Allow Me to form you, to shape you, to purify and to illumine you in preparation for the work that I have given you to do for My priests.  For this to happen, you have only to abide in My presence.  The work of adoration is also, and first of all, My work in you.  When you are before My Eucharistic Face and so close to My Heart, I am acting in you and acting upon you.  Your whole being is subject to My divine influence when you present yourself before Me to adore Me.

This, Daughter of St. Philip Neri, is why I so insist on adoration for you.  It is the crucible of your perfection.  It is the furnace of love in which I purify you like gold in the fire.  It is the nuptial chamber in which I draw you to My Heart, and to speak to you face-to-face, as a bridegroom to his bride, and as man to a friend.  The nuptial bond of the Daughter with Me pertains to the relationship between My divinity and the Daughter's soul.  My humanity offers you a divine friendship, but that friendship leads to union of the soul with My divinity and to a fruitfulness that surpasses every action and work of a soul working on her own initiative.

Consent to this friendship and I will espouse your soul.  Thus will you be Mine in a way that exceeds every purely human notion of union, even the union between two souls in the purest charity.  I created your soul for these espousals with My divinity, and your soul will have failed to attain that for which I created it, and that for which I destine you, unless you allow Me to love you and to purify you and to unite Me to yourself, not only as Friend to friend, but also as the One and Thrice Holy God to His beloved creature.  I am one with My Father and with the Holy Spirit, and when I love a soul and espouse a soul to Myself, that soul is also united and espoused to the Father and to the Holy Spirit.  Here, "espoused" is but a human word.  These mystical espousals have about them nothing carnal or material.  I speak of the union of the soul with her God, the realization of that for which she was created, and the fulfillment of her truest longings.

I fear being deluded or of falling prey to my own imagination.  Why should I dare to hope for such a thing or desire such an intimate love?  What could I offer in return?

Why should I not hold conversation with you who are the friend of My Heart?  I speak in this way to many souls but not all recognize My voice, and very few welcome My conversation and receive My friendship as the freely given gift it is.  It is My delight to hold conversation with those whom I love. Understand this: I hold conversation with you because I love you with an infinitely merciful and tender love and because I set My Heart upon you long ago to make you entirely My own.

When the enemy who hates Me and who hates all whom I love saw that My love was preparing you for union with Myself, he set about corrupting you by every means at his disposal.  Many things happened that put you at risk and threatened the fulfillment of My plan for you.

All of this has been going on, visibly and invisibly, for so many years, but now I have led you into the harbor of peace and of holiness that I have prepared for you.  This life of adoration is your harbor of salvation, just as it will be a harbor of salvation for many priests who risk being shipwrecked in the stormy waters of lives stirred up by sin and darkened by the shadows of evil.  Thank Me that I have brought you here, and now begin to love Me more, desiring Me and choosing My love over all else.  You are Mine.


adapted from
In Sinu Jesus
The Journal of a Priest at Prayer