Monday, August 14, 2017

Your priestly mission and shared spiritual motherhood with Mary

"Your role is that of a Mass mystically continued, and such should be the role of the Daughters of St. Philip Neri, to continue the offering, offering me to the Father, and offering themselves with me . . .  . So many forget me, daughter!  So many offend me!  But the mission of the Daughters of St. Philip Neri is to repair this forgetfulness in union with Mary, consoling me, remembering me, but in the way I have told you.

You see, I am hurt more by forgetfulness than by the world's offenses, because I am forgotten by my own people, and this deeply wounds my sensitive Heart.

Do not forget me, and may your people not forget me, because forgetting implies ingratitude, and this is the worst thorn in my Heart.  

Remember me by offering me, because if you remember me you remember the Father; you will remember both of us together.

If only you could see how much forgetfulness there is of my Divine Person and of my graces among my own people.

And so, during the hours of these crucifying Masses will my soul be ceaseless loving and consoling you day and night, covering you with tenderness and caressing you, repairing with you the offenses suffered by your heavenly Father?

Yes, Daughter, for yours is a priestly mission, and together with Mary you will know not only how to console me but also to save them.  Does your soul not desire to love me endlessly?  Today I am placing in your soul this means of glorifying me, atoning with love . . .  . Love, as I have told you, is the great atonement, the great repairer, and what is there that cannot be accomplished by maternal love?

Lord, would you like to explain to me how my soul can be present at ever Mass, as you told me yesterday?

It is very simple.  Inasmuch as you are transformed into me, wherever I am, you are, and wherever you are, I am, because of this unifying union that makes one out of two.

You will be in the Masses together with Mary through the reflection of the divine motherhood, by reason of the Mystical Incarnation in your soul and as a fortunate result of this grace.

You will be there with your will, a power superior to the soul, which together with mine forms just one desire with mine.

You will be present through love, which is everywhere and bridges all distances, which climbs up to heaven and reaches the infinite bosom of God, who is One and yet many.

You will be present, because this is my Will, and that is sufficient.

But apart from this, My intention is that your mind will never be separated from me, as far as this is possible, that your memory will always be with me, that your tenderness and consolation of Love continue in your soul and that I will never be without them.  My intention is that your soul be joined together with that of Mary, as a sign of your union with her, fulfilling your mission on the altars.

You already know your mission - it consists of adoring, atoning, and consoling my Heart, obtaining graces for priests glorifying me.

Father, can you see what I feel?  Can it be that Jesus' words are being fulfilled?  I can feel my soul present at Mass all over the world, in intimate and constant remembrance of Jesus.  It is not just a normal remembrance, but a memory of life - a living and intimate remembrance, as if the remembrance of him who calls me and my own remembrance that follows him met on the way.

It is a memory of possession - I have it and I want to have it.  It is as if the memory were his image, as if it were he himself, and day and night I think of the altar on which he is constantly sacrificed, and I see myself next to him, offering him up with Mary.  His memory is he himself for me; it is both possession and union.

My love for Mary is also growing day by day, as if her perfection and virtue were illuminating me, as if she were drawing me to herself with trust, and I do not run away at the point of shame because of the Mystical Incarnation, but rather I fall into her arms, asking her for her lessons of love.

This is your role, to be present with your soul together with my Mother at Mass . . .  . Does your soul not sigh and weep when you see insulting and sacrilegious Masses, even though your body is not there?

This place on the altar belongs to you because of this maternal detail, because, Daughter, Mary's Son is also your Son, the Son of your heart, the one who is crucified on the altar by both worthy and unworthy priests, and your motherly soul has to be present to weep and to suffer, to love and console, or to be joyful when the Immaculate Lamb is offered to the Father by pure hands.

My sacrifice would not be complete without my Mother's heart, because of Mary's motherhood.  She completed my Passion, and she keeps on carrying out her role as co-redemptrix.

The Church, together with its priests and its faithful, should continue my Passion on earth.

The favor I have bestowed on you with is very great - joining you to Mary in a special way . . .  .

At night I felt a painful sorrow inside, and I remembered him offended in so many Masses.  Jesus came without my asking him, and he told me this, "You see, spiritual motherhood obtains grace, since its intercession, because of its divine origin, is more powerful.

God gives himself continuously, and motherly souls should also give themselves.  But where do they receive if not from the eternal Fountain of all graces?

This is why their spirits have to be joined like the branches to the Vine.

But that is my role on earth, the mission of a Man-God's most purified love, to live constantly on earth as a sacrifice on the altars reliving the Passion of Calvary, to enable them to reach heaven.

The sacrifice of the Cross on the altar was enough, but the cruelty of my wicked priests has led me to another Calvary on the altar - another sacrifice, another Passion, double martyrdom with the sacrilege they impose on me, a double Cross on which they doubly sacrifice me, on which they challenge heaven and my very Person, not only laden with their sins but as if I were the actual criminal.

And what happens next?  Mary comes in between her two sons, interceding to heaven and obtaining forgiveness, sacrificing her only Son with this delicate motherly martyrdom.

And this concerns you and all motherly souls.  They alone have this privilege.  The Father listens to them and they appease him, because there is a holy thread of fruitfulness in those same motherly souls (because of the Mystical Incarnation), and this is wherein the secret of their power for intercession lies, because in a way God sees God in them, the Father sees the Father, from the same holy thread of motherhood received from the Father.

But sacrificing the holy and pure Son is martyrdom, Jesus of my soul, in order to obtain forgiveness for the other guilty and pitiless son, who dares to be you, and together with you to offend your Father.

But once again, this is my role, the role of the sacrificed lamb, and your role and Mary's is the one of motherly martyrdom, offering up in the same way as the Father the Divine Son to be crucified, but with this unheard-of difference.

My enemies did not know what they were doing on Calvary, but my wicked priests crucify me twice on the altar, fully aware of their betrayal and shamelessness, and they martyr me with a double martyrdom, the martyrdom of seeing myself in them, a criminal before my Father, and the martyrdom of drinking from the chalice of their condemnation, a very delicate and painful martyrdom for my soul that loves them so much.

And this double martyrdom also implies a double love, the love that you should have on the altar, the tremendous pain of seeing me doubly sacrificed by my wicked priests, and the awful torture of seeing the treacherous priest condemned in life.  Rather than with a kiss, he betrays me to such terrible suffering and a double pain, the pain of seeing myself offending my Father in the priest, together with what he most loves, his own Son, who only wants endless worship for him, and the pain of seeing the Savior of the world as a reproach to the priest until he is washed with contrition, that is, with my blood, the same blood that he has drunk sacrilegiously.

Can you see your role more clearly now on many of my altars?

These most remarkable texts (adapted for the Daughters of St. Philip Neri) about the Eucharist, the experience of a Mystical Incarnation, and a participation in Mary's Spiritual Motherhood to Priest were written by a Mexican woman, who was married, had children and then became a widow - Concepcion Cabera de Armida.  She passionately loved Jesus in the Holy Sacrament, to such a point that he became the center of her life. The heart will become warm again from contact with the fire of these writings, and will be cured of the indifference and the thoughtlessness with which the world of today treats the Eucharist.  She lived in a time of violent religious persecution and a markedly anti-Christin revolution.  May she be the spiritual mother of those who read this reflection, converting them into worshippers who seek the Father, "real worshippers who worship the Father in the spirit and in truth."  May she guide them from a love of the Lord in the Eucharist to a love for His priests and desire for their conversion.

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Priestly souls depend on your fidelity

Dear Daughters of St. Philip Neri,

The path has been set before you and offers you rest and healing.  However, you must commit to abide with Me along this path and to remain there as long as you can.  Do not compromise the immense grace that is offered to you by holding on to other things.  You are a Daughter of St. Philip and the renewal of many priestly souls depends upon your fidelity to this call.  Their healing and sanctification depends upon the love you have for them and your fidelity to adoration.  At times you may feel isolated but you are not alone.  There are many I have called to this life of adoration and reparation.  Do not be afraid; grace has been given for all I have called you to do.

The path I have traced before you is the path of adoration.  Walk this path in the light of My Eucharistic Face and you will see that it leads straight into My open Heart.  This is the very path that I would set before all My priests.  I want them to walk in the light of My Face, forsaking all darkness, and desiring nothing so much as to rest within My sacred side.

My pierced Heart is the wellspring of purity, healing, and of holiness.  How much I want to draw you to My open Heart in the Sacrament of My love!  It is enough for you to come to Me, even if you are weary and without words or affectionate thoughts..  By the simple act of coming to Me, you demonstrate your love for Me and your desire for My healing and purifying action in your souls and the souls of priests.

You must learn to remain in My presence, to abide there for as long as you can, for this is the very essence of the life to which I have called you.  When you forsake Me for other things, you are compromising the immense grace I have given you in bringing you here to be an adorer of My Eucharistic Face.  The healing and purification  of many priestly souls depends on your fidelity to this call to adoration and reparation.  I have charged you with a grave responsibility for the healing of priests and for the return of many of them to My open Heart.  Their healing and sanctification depends on the love you have for them and on the expression of that love by fidelity to adoration.  I have elected to associate you to Myself and to My most holy Mother in this work.  You are not alone. There are many other souls whom I have called to this life of adoration and reparation for My beloved priests.  But you have your part to play in this design of My merciful love and no one can fulfill this part except you.You see, then, that I count on you.  But do not be afraid.  I will give you the grace to be faithful to all that I have asked of you.  It is not you who will do great things for My priests, but rather Me living in you as in another humanity marked by My priesthood, another humanity in which I can offer Myself to the Father and pour Myself out for souls.

adapted from:
In Sinu Jesu
A Journal of a Priest at Prayer
A Benedictine Priest

Monday, August 7, 2017

You will not be disappointed in coming to me

Sometimes I fear that it is all an illusion; that You could call one like me to Spiritual Motherhood - to care for Your priests.  I know my past, my wantonness; how I ignored You seeking my own way and my own pleasures.  I, myself, had no love for you and now You call me?  And even if You should be, my heart trembles at the notion.  What will my life become?  Will it be recognizable?  The very thought of living for you thrills my soul but also fills it with fear.  I know my own selfishness, how easily I turn my thoughts to the things of the world, how weak my constitution is and how averse I am to discipline and simplicity.  Even as I have tried, I draw back from completely giving myself to you.  I linger in past memories, nay cling to them, almost hoping that a more comforting love will emerge, one that seems more tangible.  My mind gravitates to distractions, to entertainment, to work - anything to hold me back from letting go - anything to keep me from say yes. . .  .

I want you to live in silence and adoration.

Spend less time at the computer and more time in My presence.  I wait for you here.  I long to see you before Me.  I want to give you all the signs of My friendship that My Heart has destined for you and for no other, but for this you must come to Me.  Follow the promptings of My grace.

There is no need for you to grow anxious or fearful.  I will continue speaking to you so long as you come before Me with a quiet and trusting heart.  I still have much to teach you.  I want to form you in purity, in charity, in mercy towards the priests in your care, and in the ceaseless adoration that I desire from you.

Wait upon Me.  Come to Me.  Open to your heart to Me and I will open My Heart to you.

This is one of My most poignant sufferings; that I should encounter hearts that are closed to Me, even among My beloved priests, the friends whom I have chosen for myself.  How can I have friendship with one who closes his heart to Me, who flees My presence, who cannot bear to be silent, still and alone with Me and for Me?

Even for you this remains a struggle.  There are so many lesser things that pull you away, that eat up your time, and that are stumbling blocks in the path of your coming to be with Me.  Learn to  recognize these obstacles for what they are.  Some of them are your own doing; others are the work of the Evil One; still others come from the ordinary cares of life in a world that has forgotten how to be still in My presence.  Do not let yourself be stopped by any of these things.  Learn to come to Me quickly, generously, and gladly.  I wait for you in the Sacrament of My love, and you will not be disappointed in coming to Me.  This is really all I ask of souls, and especially my priests and you My Daughters - that you come to Me.  And I will do the rest.

adapted from:
In Sinu Jesu
Journal of a Priest at Prayer

Sunday, August 6, 2017

The groan of this exhausted soul

My life weighs so heavily - stifling - leaving me unable to think clearly.  Lord I have lost sight of you behind my anxieties that loom so large.  I am preoccupied with all the worldly cares that rush upon me relentlessly, without concern for the weakness of my body and the emotional toll of the years. The measure of my faith seems so thin: I question its very existence.  Whereas the breadth and depth of my self-pity has grown so powerful that even the smallest of things feels as though it would crush me.  I hesitate to bring it before you; the shame of my sensitivity that has made every nerve attuned to the slightest pain and discomfort would make me hide myself if I could - from You, from the world.  Let the groan of this exhausted soul, to tired for tears, be heard as a prayer.  Do not turn away from me, O Lord.

I am here - really present - available to you at any hour of the day or night.  I wait for you.  I want to listen to the cares and preoccupations that you carry like a heavy burden.  Give them all to Me.  Trust in Me and I will act.  I have told you this before: for Me nothing is insignificant.  No detail of your life is too small and no sin of yours too shameful to be brought to Me and to be abandoned at My feet.  Yet, this is how My saints acted.  They were certain  that any difficulty entrusted to My Heart would find there the best of all possible solutions.  Tell Me that you trust in My merciful love by letting go of the things that burden and oppress you.  I am the Lord of all things in heaven and on earth, and to Me nothing is impossible.

In Sinu Jesu
When Heart Speaks to Heart
A Benedictine Monk