Tuesday, August 29, 2017

Your hidden but beautiful vocation

Dear Daughters of St. Philip Neri,

Do not be disturbed by or feel that there is anything lacking because of the hiddenness of what you have been called to do.  There is a simplicity that the Lord desires from you.  He has not called you to enter or found a community.  Rather, He has called you to draw close to and enter His Eucharistic Heart and to offer Him your heart in trust and faith.  Worry not about projects or ideals, but rather understand that He wants you to live for Him alone and allow Him to act freely in your lives.  This free and hidden offering of yourself is what He desires.  Offer Him all your love - for in Him you will have everything!  Remain faithful to Adoration for this delights and consoles Him and understand that it is this adoration that allows Him to reach His priests most fully, even the most hardened of souls.  This is your "primary ministry" to His priests.  Adoration is the most efficacious way of reaching them - remain faithful to this and they will be the source of your eternal joy and thanksgiving!

I have not asked you to found a community, but rather to adore Me, to love Me, to seek My Eucharistic Face and draw near to My Eucharistic Heart. I have asked you to trust Me and to place in Me alone all your hope and all your dreams for happiness and peace.  Seek Me, trust Me, and all the rest will be give you besides.  You have only to remain humble and little and faithful.  Without Me, you can nothing, but to Me, nothing is impossible.

Be faithful, then, to Me, not to a project or an ideal.  I am your all.  Live for me alone.  Seek Me. Seek My Face. Take comfort close to My broken Heart.  See how I love you, even to the piercing of My Heart by the soldier's lance, even to the last drops of blood and water.  There is nothing I will not do for you, and this because I love you and because you are Mine.  Only allow Me to act freely, choosing the means, and the day, and the hour.

Here in the Sacrament of My love, you have everything.  Here you have all of Heaven.  Here you have the Creator of the earth and all that it holds, and of every human being who has ever seen the light of day.  I am all yours.  Be all Mine.  Ask Me to unite you more and more to Myself, until you are completely hidden in the secret of My Face.

I am delighted and consoled by your presence close to Me.  This is what I asked of you, and you responded to the pleas of My Heart.  Above all things, remain faithful to your times of adoration.  Invisibly and imperceptibly I am at work in your soul and in the souls of the priests you represent before My Eucharistic Face.  Your adoring presence before Me permits Me to reach them, and to touch even those whose hearts are hardened against Me.  This is your primary ministry to My priests. So long as you remain faithful to this vocation of adoration, reparation and representation of your priests in the sight of My Eucharistic Face, I will bless you and pour out upon you the treasure of mercy reserved for you in My Sacred Heart.

To be sure, there are many ways of reaching out to My priests and of ministering to them, but of all these, Eucharistic adoration is the most efficacious and the most fruitful.  Already My priests are experiencing the effect of your presence to Me in the Sacrament of My love.  Remain faithful to this, and I will save and sanctify a great number of priests.  In heaven they will be for you an eternal source of joy and of thanksgiving.


In Sinu Jesu
Journal of a Priest at Prayer





Saturday, August 26, 2017

When you pray for any soul . . . desire only what I desire



Dear Daughters of St. Philip Neri,

As you dedicate yourself to Spiritual Motherhood and commit yourself to prayer on behalf of priests, it is important that you approach this labor both with love and humility.  Let your love for Christ compel you to pray and lead you to the Eucharist.  Let humility guide and direct you in that prayer.  Set your own designs aside and seek only the will and desire of God for His priests.  

Despite the Lord's desire for their sanctification, many priests resist the action of His grace and turn away from the path of holiness He sets before them.  Pray that their fear and self-absorption may be overcome.  God overcomes every weakness and indeed works through the poor and prayerful priest most powerfully.  The fruit of their labors depends nothing upon talents or natural abilities.  It is not through worldly success that the priesthood will be renewed.  The Lord has reserved special graces for those He calls to be His priests and victims.  He will change and renew the face of the priesthood by the transforming light of His Eucharistic Face.

When you pray for any soul, begin by uniting yourself wholly to My perfect will for that soul and by entering into all the designs of My Heart on that soul.  Desire only what I desire.  Will what I will.  Let your prayer be a way of harnessing yourself to Me so that we might work together for souls and for My Father's glory.  This is what I meant when I called My dear friends to take My yoke upon them.  I wanted them to learn to labor with Me.

By the prayer of adoration for My priests, you are working with Me for them.  You are working with Me to lift them when they fall, to bind up their wounds, to deliver them from bondage to evil, to open them to My gifts, and to obtain for them a greater openness to the sanctifying action of the Holy Spirit.

Your union with Me in prayer lessens the resistance of many priests to entering resolutely upon the path of holiness that I am opening before them.  When you represent My priests before My Eucharistic Face, you are obtaining graces for them, but also the grace to accept those graces that I long to bestow upon them.  So much of what I long to give to My priests his refused because they are unable to move beyond their fears and their self-absorption.

I would work marvels in even place on earth through the ministry of My priests if they would accept the graces that I hold in reserve for them.  I would first purify and sanctify them, and then, by means of their sacred ministry, purify and sanctify a great multitude of souls, so as to make them an offering of praise and thanksgiving to the glory of My Father.

Why do My priests refuse the gifts that I would lavish upon them?  Many are self-sufficient, relying on their natural abilities and talents, and thinking that these natural gifts are sufficient for the success of their ministry.  But their idea of success is not Mine.   And the means that they would take are not Mine.  And I have no need of their natural abilities and talents.  I can do more with one poor priest who, like the Cure of Ars, is humble and utterly united to Me by ceaseless prayer, than I can with a priest who astounds the world with his knowledge and presents himself brilliantly in the sight of men.

When I find a priest who is open to My gifts, I lavish these gifts upon him.  Nothing is lacking to the priest who comes before Me in his poverty, and even in his sins, provided that he give Me his poverty and entrust Me with his sins, and expose all his weaknesses to the transforming light of My Eucharistic Face.

This is what I ask you to do for all my priests.  I am about to renew My priesthood in the whole Church.  I will purify the sons of Levi in fulfillment of the ancient prophecy, not those of a physical priestly lineage, but those who have taken the place of the former priesthood, and who are one with Me in the everlasting priesthood of the Order of Melchisedek.  I will change the face of the priesthood and make it resplendent with the light reflected from My Eucharistic Face.

In Sinu Jesu
A Journal of a Priest at Prayer





Sunday, August 20, 2017

A priest's terrible responsibility towards the Eucharist



Woe to the world without this pure, holy and immaculate victim, constantly sacrificed on the altar for its atonement and purification!

Woe to the souls that do not have Jesus Christ in the tabernacle!  Poor me! if I do not have that consecrated Host that is my life, my strength, my only love and desire, my only joy and happiness.  If I could only give my blood right down to the last drop for the beloved Church, for the doctrine that is scorned, for so much grace that is wasted and trampled on.  Jesus, Jesus!  Your ministers are sometimes the first to more or less see this liquid treasure spilled out from your very heart!

Oh my God, let me weep for this great misfortune with tears from my soul!  They treat you, Lord, and your divine Sacraments with such a lack of respect, with such impure hearts and hands!  How can you allow this to happen, Lord, how can you suffer it in such profound silence?  Faith, Lord, faith!  Shed your divine light on those minds that have been darkened by . . . shall I say it? (a hidden force makes me say it clearly!), darkened by vice . . . and you suffer, Lord, in the silence of the tabernacle you weep at the insults, at the loss of those poor souls.

Mercy, Lord, have mercy!  I can see, Father, although I do not know how, the terrible judgment awaiting those priests who neither receive nor give the precious blood of Jesus Christ as they should . . . who do not work at their own holiness, in order to fruitfully sow the divine seed in hearts.  The priests who live in the Church of the Lord like parasites have an enormous responsibility . . . I can feel the profound complaints of the divine Heart about this, something that deeply deeply hurts him!

If only with my blood and with my life, with my crucifixion, I could alleviate the pain of this divine Heart so maltreated by his own!  My soul is in pain, Father, and I wish to be a victim.  I want to suffer, and belonging entirely to God, I want to sacrifice myself for the holy and pure Church, where he has put his heavenly riches.


I need worthy and pure priests as victims, I mean, just as you saw me, pure white and constantly yearning for the sacrifice.  I would gladly join them to myself in the sacrifice of the altar, offering both of us at the same time for the salvation of the world.

Yes, daughter, you should know this.  I am constantly entering into impure souls, a terrible crime that will be punished by my justice with torture!  This is a fairly constant thing too in my priests, who should be pure, chosen and clean vessels not only to receive me but to keep me in them consoling me and giving me to console with sacrifices of love.

The priest brings about on the altar, daughter, an exact copy of the Incarnation of the Word.  It is as if, with the words of the Consecration, he creates, that is, gives life (this is the divine virtue inherent in those words) to a Being, a Being that is both divine and human, called God and man, the Word made flesh, your Jesus.  The priest does not and cannot give life to God, because God is Life.  He does not and cannot give life to the God-Man, because He lives and will live eternally glorified.  Rather he transmits that divine and human life into the substance of the bread and the substance of the wine, bringing about the transubstantiation by the power of his words, so that what was before just bread and wine, after those holy words pronounced by the priest becomes the substance of my body and blood that was shed on Calvary . . .  .

When the priest takes the divine words of the Consecration on his lips, words born of Love, from an Excessive Love of the Word God Made Flesh, he has in them the substance of creation, and shortly afterwards he holds in his hands, I mean immediately after the words are pronounced, the substance of redemption, sacrificing me . . .  .

Oh daughter! the priestly ministry is so sublime, and the bodies and souls of those who perform it should be so HOLY . . .  .

These most remarkable texts (adapted for the Daughters of St. Philip Neri) about the Eucharist, the experience of a Mystical Incarnation, and a participation in Mary's Spiritual Motherhood to Priest were written by a Mexican woman, who was married, had children and then became a widow - Concepcion Cabera de Armida.  She passionately loved Jesus in the Holy Sacrament, to such a point that he became the center of her life. The heart will become warm again from contact with the fire of these writings, and will be cured of the indifference and the thoughtlessness with which the world of today treats the Eucharist.  She lived in a time of violent religious persecution and a markedly anti-Christin revolution.  May she be the spiritual mother of those who read this reflection, converting them into worshippers who seek the Father, "real worshippers who worship the Father in the spirit and in truth."  May she guide them from a love of the Lord in the Eucharist to a love for His priests and desire for their conversion.

Monday, August 14, 2017

Your priestly mission and shared spiritual motherhood with Mary


"Your role is that of a Mass mystically continued, and such should be the role of the Daughters of St. Philip Neri, to continue the offering, offering me to the Father, and offering themselves with me . . .  . So many forget me, daughter!  So many offend me!  But the mission of the Daughters of St. Philip Neri is to repair this forgetfulness in union with Mary, consoling me, remembering me, but in the way I have told you.

You see, I am hurt more by forgetfulness than by the world's offenses, because I am forgotten by my own people, and this deeply wounds my sensitive Heart.

Do not forget me, and may your people not forget me, because forgetting implies ingratitude, and this is the worst thorn in my Heart.  

Remember me by offering me, because if you remember me you remember the Father; you will remember both of us together.

If only you could see how much forgetfulness there is of my Divine Person and of my graces among my own people.

And so, during the hours of these crucifying Masses will my soul be ceaseless loving and consoling you day and night, covering you with tenderness and caressing you, repairing with you the offenses suffered by your heavenly Father?

Yes, Daughter, for yours is a priestly mission, and together with Mary you will know not only how to console me but also to save them.  Does your soul not desire to love me endlessly?  Today I am placing in your soul this means of glorifying me, atoning with love . . .  . Love, as I have told you, is the great atonement, the great repairer, and what is there that cannot be accomplished by maternal love?

Lord, would you like to explain to me how my soul can be present at ever Mass, as you told me yesterday?

It is very simple.  Inasmuch as you are transformed into me, wherever I am, you are, and wherever you are, I am, because of this unifying union that makes one out of two.

You will be in the Masses together with Mary through the reflection of the divine motherhood, by reason of the Mystical Incarnation in your soul and as a fortunate result of this grace.

You will be there with your will, a power superior to the soul, which together with mine forms just one desire with mine.

You will be present through love, which is everywhere and bridges all distances, which climbs up to heaven and reaches the infinite bosom of God, who is One and yet many.

You will be present, because this is my Will, and that is sufficient.

But apart from this, My intention is that your mind will never be separated from me, as far as this is possible, that your memory will always be with me, that your tenderness and consolation of Love continue in your soul and that I will never be without them.  My intention is that your soul be joined together with that of Mary, as a sign of your union with her, fulfilling your mission on the altars.

You already know your mission - it consists of adoring, atoning, and consoling my Heart, obtaining graces for priests glorifying me.

Father, can you see what I feel?  Can it be that Jesus' words are being fulfilled?  I can feel my soul present at Mass all over the world, in intimate and constant remembrance of Jesus.  It is not just a normal remembrance, but a memory of life - a living and intimate remembrance, as if the remembrance of him who calls me and my own remembrance that follows him met on the way.

It is a memory of possession - I have it and I want to have it.  It is as if the memory were his image, as if it were he himself, and day and night I think of the altar on which he is constantly sacrificed, and I see myself next to him, offering him up with Mary.  His memory is he himself for me; it is both possession and union.

My love for Mary is also growing day by day, as if her perfection and virtue were illuminating me, as if she were drawing me to herself with trust, and I do not run away at the point of shame because of the Mystical Incarnation, but rather I fall into her arms, asking her for her lessons of love.

This is your role, to be present with your soul together with my Mother at Mass . . .  . Does your soul not sigh and weep when you see insulting and sacrilegious Masses, even though your body is not there?

This place on the altar belongs to you because of this maternal detail, because, Daughter, Mary's Son is also your Son, the Son of your heart, the one who is crucified on the altar by both worthy and unworthy priests, and your motherly soul has to be present to weep and to suffer, to love and console, or to be joyful when the Immaculate Lamb is offered to the Father by pure hands.

My sacrifice would not be complete without my Mother's heart, because of Mary's motherhood.  She completed my Passion, and she keeps on carrying out her role as co-redemptrix.

The Church, together with its priests and its faithful, should continue my Passion on earth.

The favor I have bestowed on you with is very great - joining you to Mary in a special way . . .  .

At night I felt a painful sorrow inside, and I remembered him offended in so many Masses.  Jesus came without my asking him, and he told me this, "You see, spiritual motherhood obtains grace, since its intercession, because of its divine origin, is more powerful.

God gives himself continuously, and motherly souls should also give themselves.  But where do they receive if not from the eternal Fountain of all graces?

This is why their spirits have to be joined like the branches to the Vine.

But that is my role on earth, the mission of a Man-God's most purified love, to live constantly on earth as a sacrifice on the altars reliving the Passion of Calvary, to enable them to reach heaven.

The sacrifice of the Cross on the altar was enough, but the cruelty of my wicked priests has led me to another Calvary on the altar - another sacrifice, another Passion, double martyrdom with the sacrilege they impose on me, a double Cross on which they doubly sacrifice me, on which they challenge heaven and my very Person, not only laden with their sins but as if I were the actual criminal.

And what happens next?  Mary comes in between her two sons, interceding to heaven and obtaining forgiveness, sacrificing her only Son with this delicate motherly martyrdom.

And this concerns you and all motherly souls.  They alone have this privilege.  The Father listens to them and they appease him, because there is a holy thread of fruitfulness in those same motherly souls (because of the Mystical Incarnation), and this is wherein the secret of their power for intercession lies, because in a way God sees God in them, the Father sees the Father, from the same holy thread of motherhood received from the Father.

But sacrificing the holy and pure Son is martyrdom, Jesus of my soul, in order to obtain forgiveness for the other guilty and pitiless son, who dares to be you, and together with you to offend your Father.

But once again, this is my role, the role of the sacrificed lamb, and your role and Mary's is the one of motherly martyrdom, offering up in the same way as the Father the Divine Son to be crucified, but with this unheard-of difference.

My enemies did not know what they were doing on Calvary, but my wicked priests crucify me twice on the altar, fully aware of their betrayal and shamelessness, and they martyr me with a double martyrdom, the martyrdom of seeing myself in them, a criminal before my Father, and the martyrdom of drinking from the chalice of their condemnation, a very delicate and painful martyrdom for my soul that loves them so much.

And this double martyrdom also implies a double love, the love that you should have on the altar, the tremendous pain of seeing me doubly sacrificed by my wicked priests, and the awful torture of seeing the treacherous priest condemned in life.  Rather than with a kiss, he betrays me to such terrible suffering and a double pain, the pain of seeing myself offending my Father in the priest, together with what he most loves, his own Son, who only wants endless worship for him, and the pain of seeing the Savior of the world as a reproach to the priest until he is washed with contrition, that is, with my blood, the same blood that he has drunk sacrilegiously.

Can you see your role more clearly now on many of my altars?


These most remarkable texts (adapted for the Daughters of St. Philip Neri) about the Eucharist, the experience of a Mystical Incarnation, and a participation in Mary's Spiritual Motherhood to Priest were written by a Mexican woman, who was married, had children and then became a widow - Concepcion Cabera de Armida.  She passionately loved Jesus in the Holy Sacrament, to such a point that he became the center of her life. The heart will become warm again from contact with the fire of these writings, and will be cured of the indifference and the thoughtlessness with which the world of today treats the Eucharist.  She lived in a time of violent religious persecution and a markedly anti-Christin revolution.  May she be the spiritual mother of those who read this reflection, converting them into worshippers who seek the Father, "real worshippers who worship the Father in the spirit and in truth."  May she guide them from a love of the Lord in the Eucharist to a love for His priests and desire for their conversion.


Thursday, August 10, 2017

Priestly souls depend on your fidelity



Dear Daughters of St. Philip Neri,

The path has been set before you and offers you rest and healing.  However, you must commit to abide with Me along this path and to remain there as long as you can.  Do not compromise the immense grace that is offered to you by holding on to other things.  You are a Daughter of St. Philip and the renewal of many priestly souls depends upon your fidelity to this call.  Their healing and sanctification depends upon the love you have for them and your fidelity to adoration.  At times you may feel isolated but you are not alone.  There are many I have called to this life of adoration and reparation.  Do not be afraid; grace has been given for all I have called you to do.

The path I have traced before you is the path of adoration.  Walk this path in the light of My Eucharistic Face and you will see that it leads straight into My open Heart.  This is the very path that I would set before all My priests.  I want them to walk in the light of My Face, forsaking all darkness, and desiring nothing so much as to rest within My sacred side.

My pierced Heart is the wellspring of purity, healing, and of holiness.  How much I want to draw you to My open Heart in the Sacrament of My love!  It is enough for you to come to Me, even if you are weary and without words or affectionate thoughts..  By the simple act of coming to Me, you demonstrate your love for Me and your desire for My healing and purifying action in your souls and the souls of priests.

You must learn to remain in My presence, to abide there for as long as you can, for this is the very essence of the life to which I have called you.  When you forsake Me for other things, you are compromising the immense grace I have given you in bringing you here to be an adorer of My Eucharistic Face.  The healing and purification  of many priestly souls depends on your fidelity to this call to adoration and reparation.  I have charged you with a grave responsibility for the healing of priests and for the return of many of them to My open Heart.  Their healing and sanctification depends on the love you have for them and on the expression of that love by fidelity to adoration.  I have elected to associate you to Myself and to My most holy Mother in this work.  You are not alone. There are many other souls whom I have called to this life of adoration and reparation for My beloved priests.  But you have your part to play in this design of My merciful love and no one can fulfill this part except you.You see, then, that I count on you.  But do not be afraid.  I will give you the grace to be faithful to all that I have asked of you.  It is not you who will do great things for My priests, but rather Me living in you as in another humanity marked by My priesthood, another humanity in which I can offer Myself to the Father and pour Myself out for souls.

adapted from:
In Sinu Jesu
A Journal of a Priest at Prayer
A Benedictine Priest


Monday, August 7, 2017

You will not be disappointed in coming to me



Sometimes I fear that it is all an illusion; that You could call one like me to Spiritual Motherhood - to care for Your priests.  I know my past, my wantonness; how I ignored You seeking my own way and my own pleasures.  I, myself, had no love for you and now You call me?  And even if You should be, my heart trembles at the notion.  What will my life become?  Will it be recognizable?  The very thought of living for you thrills my soul but also fills it with fear.  I know my own selfishness, how easily I turn my thoughts to the things of the world, how weak my constitution is and how averse I am to discipline and simplicity.  Even as I have tried, I draw back from completely giving myself to you.  I linger in past memories, nay cling to them, almost hoping that a more comforting love will emerge, one that seems more tangible.  My mind gravitates to distractions, to entertainment, to work - anything to hold me back from letting go - anything to keep me from say yes. . .  .

I want you to live in silence and adoration.

Spend less time at the computer and more time in My presence.  I wait for you here.  I long to see you before Me.  I want to give you all the signs of My friendship that My Heart has destined for you and for no other, but for this you must come to Me.  Follow the promptings of My grace.

There is no need for you to grow anxious or fearful.  I will continue speaking to you so long as you come before Me with a quiet and trusting heart.  I still have much to teach you.  I want to form you in purity, in charity, in mercy towards the priests in your care, and in the ceaseless adoration that I desire from you.

Wait upon Me.  Come to Me.  Open to your heart to Me and I will open My Heart to you.

This is one of My most poignant sufferings; that I should encounter hearts that are closed to Me, even among My beloved priests, the friends whom I have chosen for myself.  How can I have friendship with one who closes his heart to Me, who flees My presence, who cannot bear to be silent, still and alone with Me and for Me?

Even for you this remains a struggle.  There are so many lesser things that pull you away, that eat up your time, and that are stumbling blocks in the path of your coming to be with Me.  Learn to  recognize these obstacles for what they are.  Some of them are your own doing; others are the work of the Evil One; still others come from the ordinary cares of life in a world that has forgotten how to be still in My presence.  Do not let yourself be stopped by any of these things.  Learn to come to Me quickly, generously, and gladly.  I wait for you in the Sacrament of My love, and you will not be disappointed in coming to Me.  This is really all I ask of souls, and especially my priests and you My Daughters - that you come to Me.  And I will do the rest.

adapted from:
In Sinu Jesu
Journal of a Priest at Prayer



Sunday, August 6, 2017

The groan of this exhausted soul



My life weighs so heavily - stifling - leaving me unable to think clearly.  Lord I have lost sight of you behind my anxieties that loom so large.  I am preoccupied with all the worldly cares that rush upon me relentlessly, without concern for the weakness of my body and the emotional toll of the years. The measure of my faith seems so thin: I question its very existence.  Whereas the breadth and depth of my self-pity has grown so powerful that even the smallest of things feels as though it would crush me.  I hesitate to bring it before you; the shame of my sensitivity that has made every nerve attuned to the slightest pain and discomfort would make me hide myself if I could - from You, from the world.  Let the groan of this exhausted soul, to tired for tears, be heard as a prayer.  Do not turn away from me, O Lord.

I am here - really present - available to you at any hour of the day or night.  I wait for you.  I want to listen to the cares and preoccupations that you carry like a heavy burden.  Give them all to Me.  Trust in Me and I will act.  I have told you this before: for Me nothing is insignificant.  No detail of your life is too small and no sin of yours too shameful to be brought to Me and to be abandoned at My feet.  Yet, this is how My saints acted.  They were certain  that any difficulty entrusted to My Heart would find there the best of all possible solutions.  Tell Me that you trust in My merciful love by letting go of the things that burden and oppress you.  I am the Lord of all things in heaven and on earth, and to Me nothing is impossible.

In Sinu Jesu
When Heart Speaks to Heart
A Benedictine Monk