The greater your experience of the Lord's love the deeper the longing becomes to offer yourself to Him. He will satisfy that longing by giving you the opportunity to share in the self offering of the Cross. There will come a time when you will be given the grace to offer the purest reparation - to love Him not for the consolations He offers but from the pure desire to console Him for the sins committed against Him. "Thank you" becomes synonymous with "Let it be done to me according to Your Will." Such is the soul's true joy!
After our sweet return to the Faith and the inexpressible joy of union with God, after He has given us everything, the time comes for us to give Him something in return. There comes a second period, more grave, more austere: the period of loss and interior deprivation, of dryness even and sometimes real distress. We can then show our Savior the depth of our love; we expiate past faults and offer the purest reparation to Him whom we have offended; we can also offer reparation for others, make our interior trials serve other souls, and acquire more inner strength. From a spiritual perspective, God weans us from the milk of infants to give us the wine of the strong. Through all suffering and darkness of the spirit one feels a great sweetness to be doing something at last for God, showing Him that one loves Him truly - Him and not His consolations, of which He was so prodigal not so long ago. The unachieved Alleluia ends in a Fiat that, in spite of all, is still joyful.